A poem a day in April from Rutgers English PhD students and friends.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

On Second Thought

The woman aflame in the window, the girl wielding a lamp, and the grieving mother all share the same face: the artist’s secret lover. Today Vanity Fair tells me it’s so.

A small shame I have suffered these eleven years: in courting you I appropriated an anti-war masterpiece for my own erotic ends.

Is it possible to imagine more than sadism in the artist’s wartime portrayals of his mistress? Was it a sign of his commitment (to her? to the anti-fascist cause?) that Marie-Therese’s multiplied face is the one on which he refracted the suffering of the bombed Basque village?

I wrote you a ghazal entitled “Our Affair.” The epigraph named Guernica. You read it on my couch beneath a framed reproduction. (Tonight the couch and print are gone but you are near.) Here is one of its couplets:

A bird tears a vowel from its gut—
your hand clamps down on my mouth.

And another:

A light bulb explodes—
our limbs elongate and swell.

I’m wondering if I can transfer this shame into a form of knowing—not only the lure of the victim, the cruelty of the artist—but something more frightening—something like the fragility of all commitments.

3 comments:

  1. the fourth stanza makes me spinny. GUERNICA! oh no she didn't!

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  2. also I like this poem's shape.

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  3. The heart wants what it wants! Terrifying & amazing!!

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